With a title like "epiphanies" I really want this to be a dynamite blog....but hey we'll see. But, before I grace this page with my ethereal words of inspiration, I have an apology to make. From the depths of my heart...with all sincerity and with great humility, I apologize...for the horrific grammar that you have had to endure in my previous blog posts. As I went back to review some of my previous experiences, it was hard not to notice many grammatical errors. And while I cannot promise you that I won't have run-on sentences and sentence fragments, there's no reason for me to misspell words. I am kind of a stickler when it comes to noticing miss -spelled words and I have brought great shame to my house. *Tear drop. Okaaaay, on we go.
So, today was a really good day. Did I reach Nirvana...no. Did I practice for an hour...no. Did I pull off a Handstand Scorpion pose or a Tripod Headstand with Lotus Legs....haha..hell no. You know what I did? I had an epiphany. An epiphany that relates to my inability to sloooooowww down sometimes. Specifically when it relates to Core Balance Training. Somewhere along the way, maybe as a teen trying to be a great athlete, or trying to be a better student, or maybe even trying to be a better dad or teacher, I forgot how to slow down. That incremental progress is progress, and really, I'm not in a race with anyone. Don't get me wrong, it's great to have ambition. But, ambition without direction can be the opposite of helpful, even hurtful. It seems that I've had an issue in my life with control. Without getting too deep into my psyche and this becoming a therapy session, I can relate this to my need to feel that I "have" to get "better" at everything. I mean, am I trying to see how fast I can get my back better, or working to create a healthier lifestyle? I would love to say that this epiphany was all my doing, but if I'm being honest, it was Dr. P's well doing. By that, I mean I had my first coaching session with Dr. P today. I know, I know, you're thinking "you?" the OCD control freak who can handle any workout and welcomes pain!? Haha, yeah, and I didn't even realize how much I needed it. I believe we have all had the pleasure of spending some time talking with Dr. P, but having a pointed coaching session with him was phenomenal. Despite my best intentions of having fantastic ambition, I ended up with....maybe....a little blind ambition. We live in a society with a "More is better" epidemic. Cars, houses, clothes....e-x-e-r-c-i-s-e? Not me bro, I just work out to feel better, lol. And it carries over. If 8 reps is good, 15 is better right? If Dr. P says working 15-30 minutes is good, well going hard for 15-30 minutes is better, right? Not, actually.
So, we had a discussion, well, he talked and I nodded. The foundation of the program is intention and grounding. I had a little trouble I guess grasping the definition of intention as it relates to core balance training. It was less about "making it happen" and making yourself ready for it to happen. Like Dr. P says, as babies, we don't have a whole lot to work with in regards to getting up and moving. So, we work with what we've got. Tiny arms, tiny legs, and a big ever growing stronger core. And being intentional and attentive to that concept, prepares us for the relearning of how to use that powerful core as our primary source of power. Boooom. Mind=Blown. Damn....he's good. Really, listen to him. The rest of the time, I sat more calmly and quietly engaged in hanging on to his ideals. I always have been, but something clicked. It made more sense. And I think being able to share my progress, set backs (I still can't ground my back anchor consistently) and victories, I was able to find a deeper understanding of where I am and honestly where I want to go in my training. And that was all in the first session!!!! Man, I can't wait to see what I infer after the next session!! One of the best pieces of advice he gave me today was "take your time." Now, I really want to go back and rewatch the videos and re-trace my steps going through the foundation training. I will probably re-watch the The Perfect Bridge video every week at this point. In the wise words of Dr. P. "We're building a foundation below the ground, one you can't even see, but you will know is there." I'm wiping a tear away as I read that again. :) But seriously, if I have any advice that's worth hearing at this point in the process, slow down, enjoy the process, and know that you are on a path that will get you to the place you want to be, no matter the speed.
Keep on keeping on fam. We'll get there.